just thinking

Random thoughts today.  It took us a while to get Matthew here. It took us four years (by the time he is here) to get a second.  Most of the first year after Matthew birth I was dealing with a pretty mean post patrum depression so we were not trying at that point, just trying to get me back to a normal state of mind and being able to take care of myself and the baby I had.  Second year and few months was full of trying and testing to no avail.  The third year after that was tons of medical treatments, thousands of dollars, a miscarriage, and a D&C.  Fourth year starting out with another failed treatment, talking to the doctor about further treatment, a suprise pregnancy and hopefully a healthy baby in the end.  We still have no completed this segment, and there are no guarantees, but so far so good. :)
As I was reflecting and looking back I thought wow, I really have not had to go through as much as some other friends. I've known people who have had to wait 8 to 11 years for a second child. I've known people who have done all the treatments possible and are still waiting to adopt.  I've known people with multiple miscarriages. There are the friends that still don't have answers.  Looking back I can see my journey to a second, as painful and seemingly long as it was going through it, was short and easier compared to some.   Really, we have been blessed.  The journey was not as long as it seemed, and we are extremely happy with two. If we get another, wonderful. If we don't we, will feel  blessed with two.  And I'm greatful....