So as of now we have not found out anything about this round of fertility, but either way it goes, we are nearing the end of our journey. Its been a bitter sweet experience. Realizing we are at the end of our journey is difficult. There are still miracles that can occur down the road, I have no doubt, but not sure how long down the road. The journey of infertilty is difficult for any who have had to take it. I talked to many people, heard many struggles, and I ache for them all because I know exactly how it feels. Some have gone on to success, and it is exciting to hear those stories. Others have not had it as easy and its still a daily struggle to find peace in their life. It can be hard to be excited for others when they announce they are pregnant with their first, second, third, etc child. It is easy to wonder, why not me? There are days like that, and many days like that in the beginning. However learning to truly find joy and happiness in the good news of others can bless both lives. I have realized one thing about our journey is my ablility to share my beliefs about God, families, etc with others has become easier because it is such a huge part of my life and how I react to what I'm going through. Its been a blessing to me to share testimony with all people, no matter what their beliefs are, and I am thankful for their respect toward me and my feelings in that aspect, even when their feelings or views may differ. I have loved being able to share my feelings, and things I know and love freely. Despite everything, God has been our support and I am greatful. I have always loved Proverbs 3:5-6 (in the Bible).
The next few weeks will either be more joyful than I can now imagine, or one of those few very painful experiences I have had in my life. That's just how it is, its life. Life was not meant to be easy. But eventually God will get us through whatever our upcoming experiences will be.
I say to all the others out there in our same situation...hope on! There is a light somewhere at the end of the tunnel, keep on walking , you'll find it. It might be in a different place or form in your life than you expected, but its there .:)
It may be a while before I post again at either rate, but I wanted to write a concluding statement, at least as far as this phase in our life goes.
Difficult journey for anyone to be on. I'm sorry the road hasn't been easy. I do know one thing for certain, your family is beautiful and always will be no matter how many people are in it because you are all love and love each other. That is the most important thing. :)
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