As suspected....

Finally got the blood test result back last night. It was down to a 2, which means negative in pregnancy land. This is a good thing in a way because if it went up there was a chance for a tubal pregnancy with other things that were going on.  Those are NOT good!  So on to starting again. Two more tries. Makes me a bit nervous, but we are hoping for the best.  Will get started on  another ultrasound here soon. 
The most unfavorite part of this is getting the blood draw and the lovely bruises that form after.  I have one on both arms now, lucky me :).


They are doing a walk for those who can't afford IVF in Salt Lake.  They are planning to raise enough to at least put someone through a cycle for free, which is really cool. I know there are so many people who would love to do treatments to try and get pregnant, but simply can't afford it.  This is a great blessing for somebody out there.  I am all for this!  Helping others to achieve there dreams is a wonderful thing!  I have never thought of helping others out in this way but what a great way to do it! I am all about helping others who struggle with the same issues because there are so many out there!

These are different results...

Got the blood work done today, pretty sure I'm not pregnant. I had some pregnancy signs, but they went away about three days ago to nothing.  However, when I got my blood test it said my levels were at 5.  This is extremly low (but not low enough to say positive not pregnant, if its between 5-25 they test again), which probably means I did get pregnant again, but it didn't work out. Most people who this has happened to woudln't even know they are pregnant, just comes as a late period. I don't know if it is high enough to get a level detected on a home pregnancy test.  So I have to wait two days and get another blood test done.  She said they wanted to follow it down to zero before they start another round to make sure of what is happening.  I don't know if they will start another round right away or if they will make me wait at all....we'll see.  This method seems to be working for us (well kind of :) ).  The left tube seems to be doing its job.  I am glad about that.  Well we will let you know in two days if it is back down to zero...thanks for your continues support and prayers. :)

try no 4

Got our fourth round of IUI today...everything went well. Counts were lower than before by 2 million, but its still well about what it needs to be.  Cost today was $350.  So we are up to...950 something not including that first doc visit, it will end with a blood test either way. So its about 1,000 minimum each try. Definatly adds up. (sorry tracking that for my info mostly).  Not much to say this time...it almost feels like a routine procedure now. I hope the procedure is successful, but at the same time I am not getting my hopes up too high.  If its right it will happen, if not it won't. 

However, I am glad I am to a point where I am more rejoicing with others when they get pregnant.  It was hard for a long time, and thinking more like its not fair.  However, now I can truly say  I feel so excited for someone else when they get pregnant. They are all little miracles!  It does get tricky when I see siblings playing together still...that's when I feel for Matthew, really wanting him to have a friend and a playmate as well, and then I do yearn for another one.  He will get a sibling one day, I  believe that with all my heart.  Not when I wanted him to have one, but I guess i'm not in charge :)

no. 4

So try number four officially underway.  We went in for the ultrasound today and we have two possible eggs on the left side. One was a bit small, so they are giving it another day to grow and hope it will be big enough to be a possibility. Right now its at 14 mm, so not quite big enough. The other looks great at 21 mm. So I will do the shot sat night and shoot for the procedure monday, but we will have one chance for sure.  So here we go again....

keeping track

This is more just a personal post, I want to see exactly how much one round of trying costs. So I had an ultrasound today, have another one in a week, and each one costs $192, none of which inssurance pays. total so far, over $600